Fee wrote:
I usually have to give myself a treat for going to work every day since I'm five and need incentive. It's usually a coffee from my favorite place. I spend a lot of time calculating how much I'm making every day and then thinking about what I would spend that on. The real answer is rent and bills, but I don't have to think about that.
Then I think about how bad my life sucks, but at least I have a job. Which I know isn't like the best thing, but I dread losing my current job and having to look for a new one. I hate uncertainty and trying really hard to impress people, and that's all job-searching is.
Oh, and I mostly just remind myself that this isn't forever. I'm not married to my job. One day I can leave it and never look back, even if that day isn't today.
Edited a can't to a can
this. gratitude lists are awfully schmaltzy but also helpful. sometimes i just need to see that i have bucket loads of goodness in black and white for me to believe it.