Post Punk Kitchen Forum

My other crush was messaging me on okc yesterday! Lard he's cute.

As I think I've mentioned, my crush is getting quite luke warm in the crushing back factor, but is still being a really good and attentive friend luckily. Anyhow, he mentioned he thinks I should ask his best friend on a date. Apparently the friend (who also lives with him) was telling him he was sad I hadn't been around the house as much and Crush was all 'you and Tyler should go out on a date without me' and apparently Friend was all blushy. I do think he's cute and could easily crush on him too but I kind of feel like its awkward with my like for main Crush. I don't really think I am good at having multiple real crushes at the same time. Hmmmmm

i am good at having multiple real crushes BUT i think it's better to keep them more separate. like, maybe i could go on dates with two people who were good friends of each other, but roommates? nah, that seems like asking for drama. and i like my dating as drama-free as possible, even in the midst of crazy polyamorous dating webs.

Crush/person-I-am-dating told me about a free performance at this theater he's involved in tomorrow night. I'm trying to decide if I should bully someone else into coming with me or not. I HAVE 21 HOURS TO DECIDE. *flail* *flail* *flail*

Kilgore trout, what did you do?

I had a new crush blindside me on thursday evening and I got spend most of the day today at a write in with him. He suggested we go for a bike ride sometime and that he was going fast on his bike ride (we were both riding towards a similar destination, though he was going home and I was going to the next part of the write in) to impress me. I can't tell if he's interested but I really really hope he is and that I'll see him again cuz then I can give him his number. Eeeeeeeee. So nervous! (Zanylikethat, no guessing)

OMG I HAVE A SUPER IRRATIONAL CRUSH ON SOMEOE I SEE LIKE ONCE A WEEK
nonsense rambling to follow because this is so so so outside of my usual crush behavior:
ugh, I know so little about him, he's just cute and nice and shy and super nerdy and I just have this weird knee-jerk reaction of wanting to just like, I don't even know how to explain it but he was sitting next to me while we were watching this documentary and he sort of leaned forward and I had this like SUPER INTENSE urge to just like run my hand down his back, not even in a sexual way just a touchy way. I KNOW I SOUND CRAZY. I have no idea what is happening in my mind. first: I am not a touchy person (in public), even when I am actually dating someone. second: I don't really know this dude at all, and usually I have little to no attraction to people I don't know. third: again, see him like once a week maximum.

ughhh, shut up brain, I know it's cold out. but I need to stop, it's hella distracting and I'm sure I am acting like a doofus around him, shoot.

argh, sorry, Darthcupcake, I can't keep your screennames straight when exhausted. Whoops!

mostly it just makes me feel like a hormonal, out of control teenager.
I wasn't even a hormonal out of control teenager when I was a teenager.

Oh, boober. I have met a few (three, maybe?) guys that made me do that hormonal, out of control teenager thing where I just knew I had to touch them. I think sometimes you just have a chemical attraction to some people. One of them I dated for like three months, until we realized we had absolutely nothing in common except mutual attraction...

I'm going to do the super mature thing and tell my crush I have a crush on them via text because I'm too shy to say it in person without drinking and they don't drink anymore. Scary!

ahhhhhh yeah totally, it's just been a while since I've had a reaction this strong, and it really doesn't help that we are BOTH awkward idiots.
sigh sigh sigh etc.

I want to touch guys all the time lately and I would also like to say +1 hormones.

SRawk: hey! that is super brave! A+

Do it!

My crushing on my crush is now officially unhealthy. I just need to think of him as a friend and nothing more! But damn, it's hard to do! If I could only gain a crush on someone else, it would help take away a crush on him. But whoooooooo?!

I wrote the text but I think I broke all my fingers so I can't actually press send I can only type on the PPK.

I don't have the guy I'm crushing on's number otherwise I might have to follow in your footsteps. I might give him my number next time I see him. I still have no idea if he's dating anyone but I am really hoping that some of what he has said to me means he's not and he's interested. I want him to be interested! He's a really good personality match for me I think and he's really nice and good looking. a;lskdjf;as HALP. My heart hurts and I can't concentrate.

ETA to respond to second Srock post: DO IT. You can do it. You can you can you can you can! Rah Rah Rah!

If I was in that portland I would offer to come over and push the send button for you. do itttt.

Guys can you all approve my text please?

In the context of an already kind of awkward conversation...

"I would just really like to make out with you sometime but don't really know what to think. This is the only thing being sober makes harder, I think. This and falling off tables. Also here is a cat picture." And then there's a cat picture. You would fall in love with me right?

yeah pretty much would fall in love with anyone who sends me cat pictures and says they want to make out.

I may even take out the "but don't even know what to think" best concise and to the point imo! "I would really like to make out with you some time. This is the only thing being sober makes harder. This and falling off tables. Also here is a cat picture" etc

I tend to get sort of telegram-y in some texts though, biased opinion.

Being the most awkward human being on the planet sucks sometimes.

It's also weird because we did make out in June but it was totally my doing and we were both drunk. Uggggh.

send it!!

Done.

The good thing is they never ever go out so I don't think I'll run into them again if things end up super weird.

The bad thing is they have a habit of waiting a full day to text me back.

aaaahhhh
I am living vicariously through you in this moment so pls report back if there is a response :))

I'm glad I am going out tonight and probably drinking a fair amount so I will be distracted from staring at my phone for hours.